I DON'T KNOW!! I'm always worried about what other people need or want. I'm always scouring the horizon when it comes to those around me that I'm closest to. Have I asked them enough questions about themselves? Do they feel loved?Are they hungry? What would THEY like to eat? Are they hot? Are they bored? Do we need to play a game? Where do we go on vacation that will please everyone? Hawaii? Did someone say Hawaii? Do/Did I really want to go there, or are there other places I would like to visit more?
You get the idea. I'm so worried about what other people want that I have no clue what I want. Or need. It's definitely a thief of joy.
We hear a lot about self-care. What does that even mean? I know it has something to do with rejuvenation. But at this point I don't even know what rejuvenates me anymore. Being alone sounds amazing. In my own house. Not on vacation anywhere. Going on vacation somewhere sets in a whole group of expectations such as going places, seeing new things, trying new things. I honestly don't want any of that. Right now. I also know that there's a fine line between self-care and indulgence. Ice cream every day isn't self-care. It's tastes delicious but it doesn't recharge my batteries. What does?
This is definitely something that will take a lot of thought. And prayer. God knows me better than I do. I need to begin compiling a list.....
--Deep Conversations
--The sound of water (rivers, beaches)
--Yoga
--Being outside
Reading
What will bring me JOY? What brings you joy?
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