I don't know that there's anything more to say. It's beautiful and brings joy to my heart and soul. It lifts me when I'm there and it's quiet.
Wednesday, September 4, 2024
Wednesday, August 14, 2024
CHOICE
In all things we have a choice. I have learned that in every circumstance, good or bad, we have a choice. A choice in how we're going to react AND how we treat each other. Our choices can bring joy or sorrow. Which one are you going to choose?
"Wherefore, men are free according to the flesh; and all things are given them which are expedient unto man. And they are free to choose liberty and eternal life, through the great Mediator of all men, or to choose captivity and death, according to the captivity and power of the devil; for he seeketh that all men might be miserable like unto himself." 2 Nephi 2:27
I learned this lesson in living color this week. I am slow to learn. God is always trying to teach me this lesson. But this week I actually saw it. Hopefully it sticks. I'm slow.
I had the opportunity to take lunch over to my aging aunt and uncle. Their daughter, who is usually their full time caregiver, got Covid and was sequestered in a hotel somewhere.
I was asked and willingly offered to help. I love my aunt and uncle. It's impossible not to love them. They are quick to laugh and be grateful. Two keys to having joy.
When I took them lunch, they were so grateful. Both for the food and the company. I loved visiting them. Even if I have to scream to be heard. My uncle is terribly deaf. And my aunt is struggling with dementia. But I didn't mind. They wanted an update on my mom who is the sister to my uncle. My mom and her brother love each other so much. It's truly joyful to watch.
The thing that took my breath away was how my aunt and uncle still treat each other after 50+ years of marriage. Even though they have to repeat themselves over and over to each other, they do so with love and patience. Then when my aunt seemed confused or didn't remember what to do, my uncle was patient in telling her she was doing it right. And was fine. It's incredible to watch. Almost unreal in this day and time when anger, animosity and discord flourish. Their concern is always with the other person.
It's beautiful and joyful to watch. I always come away from their home a little better. Kinder. More patient and willing to seek another's comfort first. Thank you Uncle Mont and Aunt Barbara for your incredible example. I love you.
Monday, August 12, 2024
FAITH
When I was 16, 17, 18 years old to about the age of 25, my faith was rock solid. Immovable. My faith was built on bedrock and couldn't be moved.
At least that's what I thought. God was a part of my life. He answered my prayers. He was there. I KNEW it.
But then hard things happened. Children had agency they used in a way that hurt them instead of helping them. B used his agency in a way that hurt me. And him. I was bumped and bruised and I began to wonder where God and Christ were in all of this mess and hurt.
I know I have to have hurt and sorrow. I have to learn. I have to have gain wisdom only available by experience. I have to empathy born of that experience. But it hurt. And continues to hurt. And couldn't Christ minimize the pain?
My faith has taken a different path. When I pray, I wonder if God is going to answer because it's his will? Or am I going to have to navigate this on my own this since the answer to my pleadings are a resounding no from Him?' And when the answer is no, I wonder if he's there and has he heard me?
Why wouldn't he give me what I ask for when what I ask for is meant to bless everyone involved? But sometimes my request is to minimize the full measure of the pain that God requires or desires me to experience. I hate that part.
Today my plea is to Let God Prevail (RMN, Oct. 2020). I know in my head I need to do this. My head knows that 'He doeth not anything save it be for the benefit of the world; for he loveth the world, even that he layeth down his own life that he may draw all men unto him.' My hard and willful heart is still trying to know it. And struggles to lay down the desire to have it my way. My way doesn't know better. God and my Savior do. I want that faith back from my 16 year old self.
Sunday, June 30, 2024
CAPTURED INTO
BABYLON
I have been thinking about the idea of being captured into Babylon.
The Israelites continued to become more and more wicked. They strayed farther and farther from the covenant path the Lord had set forth for them. They were stuck in rules, rites, rituals instead of the true meaning of the Law. Bringing us to the Savior. Loving God and neighbor. They were quick to judge and slow to bestow mercy.
Prophets warned of them being taken captive. Jeremiah, Ezekiel, Nephi and Isaiah to name a few.
Revel 18:2-4 And he cried mightily with a strong voice, saying, Babylon the great is fallen, is fallen, and is become the habitation of devils, and the hold of every foul spirit, and a cage of every unclean and hateful bird.
For all nations have drunk of her fornication, and the kings of the earth have committed fornication with her, and the merchants of the earth are waxed rich through the abundance of her delicacies.
And I heard another voice from heaven, saying, Come out of her, my people, that ye be not partakers of her sins, and that ye receive not of her plagues
Jeremiah 51: 6 Flee out of the midst of Babylon
1 Nephi 1:13...many things did my father read concerning Jerusalem--that it should be destroyed, and the inhabitants thereof; many should perish by the sword, and many should be carried away captive into Babylon.
How does that equate to me in today's world?
I think I've decided we've all been taken captive into Babylon in one way or another. Unless you're the prophet.
I consider my caffeine and chocolate addiction being taken captive.
Others buy into the idea of the latest trends. Which I guess is me too, again.
We just got new flooring on the main floor. LVP is what it's called. And it's what 100% of new houses have. No more tile. And very limited carpeting. LVP is just easier to clean and keep up. Especially in my world of dogs. But then I'm justifying, aren't I? And I'm digressing.
I think the whole idea of being taken captive is an individual thing and depends on whatever it is in your life that distracts you from your relationship with the Savior and God.
But how do you flee Babylon? It's all around us. In your face, always.
For me, maybe it means getting up early and being with God and my Savior in prayer and in the scriptures. Pondering is a big one for me. And not just pondering about what I'm going to do that day. Or what problem needs tackling. Pondering about God and spiritual things helps my focus and opens me up to revelation and insights that would never have occurred to me if I hadn't been still and quiet.
Fleeing Babylon also looks like praying vocally in the car when I'm running errands. Or thinking about what I read that morning. Fleeing Babylon also means looking to my family and neighbors and their needs and serving them first before other things. I don't need that extra trip to Costco spending $300 and not coming home with anything to show for it but milk, eggs, fruit veg. bread and cheese.
We are the Children of Israel. We are of the Covenant Promise of Israel.
It's time to flee Babylon and put our Savior in His rightful place. At the head of our lives.
Sunday, February 18, 2024
Wednesday, February 7, 2024
I hope you'll indulge me while I wax eloquent for a minute....Friday Chris invited me to go with him and the boys to hike Donut Falls. Good memories from years past. But not the hike I remembered. I'm getting old I guess.
It was a beautiful day, albeit a little chilly when we started. And I think for Chris and I it wasn't the hike we quite expected. Although being in the mountains is a good day any day! And for me, I was with the people I love. There were a couple of places where we had to cross the river. Mack was on Chris's back. The first crossing Chris grabbed Lukey and just hauled him over. Beck was fine. There were a couple of other places before the second crossing where I was able to help Luke while Chris had Mack. Beck was a mountain goat.
When we came to the second crossing (if that's what you want to call it.) It was kinda like getting to the falls up Adams canyon. You're basically on your own except for a precariously placed skinny log with a few others around it. Kind of a free for all
Chris made it across again with both boys. I don't know
how he did it. I think both Beck and I managed to step in the water but Chris made it across dry.
I felt bad for not being more help. My core isn't what it used to be.
Here's the deal, if we crossed the river twice getting up there we had to cross it going back.
When we got to the water Chris told Luke to hang on
tight. Luke did, but it wasn't good enough. So Chris said 'No, put your arms
around me and hang on as tight as you can.'
They made it.
I'm not mentioning what my crossing looked like.
The rest of the hike was fairly uneventful except for a
scraped knee at the end. But it's not a hike with kids unless there's some
casualty.
Here's my thoughts...and I know you know where I'm going with this....
Life is becoming full on crazy. We all thought we were in
for a beautiful easy life. At least I did! It is beautiful, but not without
pain and difficulty.
There are parts (most parts, actually) that we can't do
alone. We need help. First of all, we need each other. I'm soo grateful for
each and every one of you who are a bright spot and example to me in so many
ways that you will never fully know. I love you all soo much!
Also, we need the Savior. He helps us through this
life when we don't know how we're going to do it. In fact, he tells us to grab
Him by the neck and hold on tight. Because if we don't, we won't make it. He
literally carries us. If we will let him. We are nothing without him. Friday,
Lukey would have been left behind without Chris. Christ WON'T leave us behind.
But we do have to hold on tight to Him. Yes, there are owies along the way but
that's when we come in to help each other. And the Savior doesn't carry us the
whole way. Just the parts where we would be left, lost and forgotten. I am so
grateful for Him. He's my friend. I love Him.
And that's all I have to say 💕
Wednesday, January 24, 2024
Succor; a person or thing that gives help, relief and aid.
I once heard a
religion teacher say it literally means ‘to run to’. We see this word in Alma
7:12 that says, speaking of Christ, ‘…and he will take upon him their
infirmities, that his bowels may be filled with mercy, according to the flesh,
that he may know according to the flesh how to succor
his people…’
That word is Gaye Brown to me. The morning our sweet Sarah died, the bishop
came to our house with the police. After
they gave us the news, he asked if he could share it with you. You were the RS
president at the time. But you had also just
been with Sarah on a trip to Ghana less than a year earlier.
The next thing I knew there you were at my doorstep covered
in dirt from doing yard work that morning.
You had ‘run to’ us before even changing or washing up. I remember your
nails having dirt on them. And there you
sat and cried with us and shared memories of our sweet Sarah and from when you
had lost your amazing Jodie the July before.
It was a special sacred time that I will never forget. It was ‘Pure religion and undefiled….visiting
(us) in (our) affliction’ (James 1:27)
You are a bright spot in the lives of everyone who knows
you. I want to be like you when I grow
up. I love you!
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